Tuesday, December 10, 2013

Winter beaded sphere

Just as I promised yesterday, I come with another beaded sphere, made with the same pattern from this post. Only this time it's more cold, white and blue with a little bit of rose gold. Something for the winter... although I can't say I love winter really! I'm quite happy with the weather outside... at least it's not that cold. ;)

Even though this one wouldn't look bad on a small Christmas tree either, it is a pendant too. Nothing else you would expect, I assume. ;)

It measures 2,5 cm (1") wide in diameter. The pattern is available in my Etsy and Craftsy stores.

beaded sphere

beaded ball

And this is the winter beaded sphere with its Christmas "friend":

beaded spheres

Don't worry now, there will be no more beaded spheres for some time. Time to make another donut instead. ;)

Take care my friends! :)

Monday, December 9, 2013

Christmas beaded sphere

After a long while spent on knitting and crocheting I felt an urgent need to do some beading. I wasn't very keen on designing something completely new, so I returned to one of my old patterns instead - the beaded sphere from this post.

Used black Twin beads, silver-lined red Toho seed beads in size 11/o as well as dark gold/bronze Toho seed beads size 15/o. Thanks to the colours it looks a bit like a Christmas decoration to me. It won't hang on a Christmas tree though, it will be used as a pendant of course. As always. ;)

It measures 2,5 cm (1") wide in diameter. The pattern is available in my Etsy and Craftsy stores.

beaded sphere

beaded ball

And I'll see you again soon with another sphere. :)

Thursday, December 5, 2013

Anniversary soutache set

Some time ago my friend's husband asked me to make something special for his wife, for their wedding anniversary. It was up to me what to make though... and it didn't make it easier at all. I couldn't figure out what the best present would be and so I was wondering about it for almost a month. Luckily, just a few days before their anniversary I suddenly realized that I have heard Aga once mentioning some soutache jewelry that she found beautiful. My experience with soutache however is only slightly bigger than none, but I decided to give it a try.

After one long day, I came up with a set like this:

soutache jewelry

soutache earrings

The set was made with black and metallic gold soutache cords, metal beads and beautiful Swarovski coated rivolis. The pendant is 6 cm (2,36") long and the earrings measure 2,5 x 3,5 cm (1 x 1.37").

Happy anniversary, Agnieszka & Paweł! :)

Monday, November 11, 2013

Another twisted pendant

As I am starting to receive messages in which you ask if everything is fine, I thought I might write a short entry, let you know that I am fine and in good health and show a pendant that was made long ago.
Unfortunately for the beads I took a short break from them. Instead, within the last few weeks I have made numerous scarves, caps, a half of a shawl and almost an entire tunic. I still have kilometers of yarn left, so I don't know when exactly I may return from knitting to beading again. ;)

The pendant below is made with Delica and Toho beads, using a twisted peyote stitch again. It is 3cm (1,18") wide and 6,5 cm (2,55") long, without the bail.

twisted peyote pendant

And I want to thank you for all the reassuring comments under my previous post. I just wanted to show you that you still can live and enjoy your life no matter what. I hope you will remember these words. :)

Have a wonderful day and I'll see you again soon, I hope. :)

Monday, October 21, 2013

A few words... :)

I wasn’t really planning to write such a post, but the messages I receive, the comments you keep writing made me want to share some thoughts about my illness with you.

Being diagnosed with cancer usually changes the life completely. Even the early stages of cancer, that are usually fully curable, cause fear, uncertainty and anger. It makes you ask questions “Why me?”. It makes you really scared of death, especially when you are young and there is still so much for you to do.

It is even worse, when you know that you just can’t be cured. I was diagnosed with stage IV breast cancer, with several metastases to the liver. This stage is incurable, no matter how hard the doctors would try, they just can’t cure me. They can prolong my life with one chemotherapy after another, but this is all they can do. What a person is supposed to do in this case?

It seems there are only two solutions to this problem. It’s either fighting, at any price, or giving up and waiting for death to come. These two things, in one way or another, determine your life. And even if you choose to fight, or choose to give up, the illness has already won over you. You can say “No, I am fighting it, so how could it win?”. But what else can it be if you sacrifice the rest of your life to fight? The illness becomes the most important thing in your life. And I think you should never ever allow it to happen.

One can say, that sometimes cancer can teach you to appreciate your life. It wasn’t like this in my case. I learnt to appreciate my life long time ago. Many years ago, when I was barely over 20, I lost my parents and was left with no family at all. It taught me that only me and no one else is responsible for my life. I learnt how to live a life, because it is too precious to be wasted. So could I waste it on just being ill? No, I couldn’t.

From the very beginning I knew that my illness wouldn’t determine my life. Instead of asking myself a question “Why me?”, I kept saying “Good it is me and not a mother with little children”. Instead of being scared of death I kept convincing myself that if this is my destiny, I will just accept it. I went through six rounds of chemotherapy while still working full time. I could feel really awful during the first two or three days after the chemo, and then I was desperately searching in my body for enough strength to get up and go to work. You don’t really know how strong you are until you have to find the strength in you. I can’t say that the treatment was easy though, I paid a really high price and I still pay the price every single day. But I didn’t allow it to change my life. That was the most important thing I was aiming for and I succeeded.

My decision about not continuing the treatment was hard. Not for me though, but for everyone else, for people who just don’t want to accept the fact that I may die. But this time I know that getting another chemo wouldn’t just make much sense, because sooner or later it would make my life unbearable, more than cancer itself. I don’t want to prolong my life at any price, and I’d rather have the illness, not the treatment, kill me. It is my decision though, and I know it is a right decision.

But what I want to tell you isn’t about me continuing the treatment or not. I want to tell you that I hope that none of you will ever have to face such an illness. But if something like that will ever happen to you or to a member of your family, or to a friend, please just remember, that whether fought or not, cancer just can’t be allowed to win. It is life, that is the goal, the health, not defeating an illness. Can you see the difference here?

I meet many people suffering from cancer. When I look at 99% of them I feel like the illness is the only thing that keeps them alive. They can talk about it for hours. They spend entire days searching for information about cancer in the internet. They just live with cancer and for cancer. Maybe this is their way to cope with the illness, but for me the acceptance is the key. At least I can keep my inner balance this way.

I will be turning 35 later this week. I found out that I have cancer almost exactly a year ago. An average lifespan for my stage is three months. According to the doctors, I should have died long ago. Yet I still live. Of course, I don’t do heroic deeds, I don’t save the world, I just live a normal, everyday life which I enjoy – I live, I laugh, I love. Sure, I don’t know for how long, but this is something that nobody knows. But, the time I have left I’m going to spend on LIVING.

And on smiling. Because no illness can take it away from me.


After a few e-mails I want to add a short summary. Or maybe not a summary, but just one advice. Live your life and enjoy it, no matter what. Be happy with what you have. That is what I wanted to tell you. :)

Tuesday, October 8, 2013

Unlucky-lucky pendant :)

It happens quite often that I am not really satisfied with the jewelry I make. Poor jewelry can't live for long then, it usually is destroyed and the saved beads, if they're lucky enough, go into some other piece. The pendant you can see below somehow managed to avoid being destroyed, even though I didn't like it at all! Lucky pendant though, because before it met the scissors, I decided to give it a chance. So I wore it yesterday. And today... And you know what? I don't really know how it happened, but I realized it wasn't that bad as I thought in the beginning. It will stay with me then. No meeting the scissors in that case. ;)

It is made with fire polished beads, Toho seed beads in three sizes and there are even a few SuperDuos in it, as well as 12mm Swarovski rivoli in the middle. It measures 4,7 cm (1,85") in diameter, without the bail.

And how often do you destroy the jewelry you make, before you show it to the world? ;)

beaded pendant

And now I have to run to the kitchen if I don't want to burn my dinner. ;)
See you some other day! :)


Tuesday, October 1, 2013

Irises - beaded crochet necklace with a free pattern :)

It won't be a long post, because I have some work to do. But I wanted to show you the beaded crochet necklace I have finished recently. :)

It's made mostly with Toho seed beads and some Preciosa, since I couldn't find all the needed colours from the Toho manufacturer... The necklace is 40 cm (15,75") long and for once stringing the beads wasn't a nightmare. In fact it was simple, fast and easy. :)

The pattern is available for free here.

And this is how the necklace looks like:

beaded crochet necklace

beaded crochet necklace

beaded crochet necklace

Now, before I go, I'd like to say thank you for being with me. I love you all! :)))
See you next time! :)

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